i am in the dark.

again.

its not a good place. sadness is resurfacing and attempting to bacome my ally.

these.feet.

defeat.

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i have always had the worst habit of 'putting things together.
like times at which things happen. usually my way of catching people in lies. see people have the "habit of attempting" to try to make you feel a way that is not reality. not yours anyway. but the one that they feel is appropriate. to solicit the response that they want you to have. i say this because it is a post that i had starter. months ago. and i wanted to finish it.

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today. i am saying. things add up. but don't let them add up to you being minus one.

i am really hating my life.

if you had windows to peer into my soul.

the view would be a hue of purple and black.

i am alone.

i have nothing.

no "significance".

i am just co.co.

your comfort when you are not feeling well.

when you want rest.

i give you love.

she says...

why do you want somebody...who does not want you?

questions.

[bliss is..]

...waking up to the warmth of your breath blowing gently across my chest.

...knowing that you complete me.

...enter me.

...devour me.

...indulge me.

...rebirth me.

you can only wish...

ode to my blaqgirl, love. Ms.King

you bad as a muthafucka
angela davis fist in the air type shit
wild nappy hair type shit
....you bad as a muthafucka

you're insane
like fuck up and i'll prevent you from breathing
and ever seeing
the dawn of another decade

sweet like cherry kool-aid
and righteous like sandlewood incense

born in the month of october
so you balance, like for instance
like the way that justice would
if justice worked in the hood

but all black folks. we know it don't
which is cool
because you bad as a muthafucka

when i come home
you give me what the world wouldn't
and thats love
true and unconditional

you see my skin
black as a muthafucka
and you don't smile outside but retreat within
you see my naps and don't even make me comb them

you are my fortress, my strength
and my very best friend
the unamious hole ripped into the universe
like god's hiccup that i hide in

when life is biting
my beautiful muse
when i'm writing
you are a no limit assata shakur
ride or die revolution type soldier

you, bad as a muthafucka
sometimes everybody needs a shoulder
(i.got.you) my baby
bad as a muthafucka
can't NOTHING
(PERSONplacething)
touch her...
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that is why you love me.
and i love your alfredo

ciao bella

Beautiful words from the MC...

this is what she gives me daily

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would it be asking too much



for you to love me as



deeply as i love you





to not be swept away into the chronicles of secrets



that you flip like pages



or tears



dripped flippantly away





i will not cry





let me stayhere



among the doubts that you harbor



the fears that you hold close to your heart



the infidelity that you cannot admit





let me stay



until



the madness subsides.
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i welcome you.



i am blessed with you.



i have you.



i am greatful

i am just. a man. (in the smallest form)

this guy. my youngest in existence right now. i love. innocence. joy. beauty. forgiveness. caring. appreciation.

you.

i. love.

t-baby.

the baddest man in the land. in a few years that will be literal. but for the time being. i will continue to steal your kisses while you continue to be amazed at my laptop.

ode to chelsP.

the talent. of a young sister.

i decided to let this be my first post. because she is gifted. and beautiful. and it shows in her work. i have been blessed to experience her growth. and as she srtives to be greater. i will continue to help push her.